I'm sorry that I can never forget how you can never forgive .
I'm sorry that I'm not that daughter you dreamt of .
I apologize for being your worst tragedy, for being me .
Yes, I can't see what's in front of me .
But you are blinded by reputation, rumours .
I can't deny that I dislike most of your family, my own cousins
Cause they bring you down, you bring me down .
They said things, they blamed, they cursed .
But, one thing I can never accept the fact is that you were with them .
Ohh please, cousins .
If you want to talk about my mom's family and kids .
Look at yours, they appeared in the newspaper, and we didn't talk about it .
You abuse your own son, you call others spoilt ? ungrateful ? stupid ?
&yes, I prefer my other side of cousins who are not like me, they're good people .
Even if my mum's family is just like me, easy to get along, models, rich .
It don't mean a goddamn thing
Dearest, I missed you .
I missed me .
I missed the way we were .
I'm contented seeing you happy now and I thank you for being there .
I thank you for knowing me, even when I don't even utter anything .
I just love the way we are, its's sweeter than any other .
-And it's not a guy, it's FarahMasyem (;
" And you still wonder why I've changed, why I'm more preserve, why I turn to my friends and myself more than I do to you . I can't change this, it's the way things will be . One thing I can never ever change; myy love for you cause no matter how hard I try, forever you're the reason for my being . Ibu; I seek your forgiveness "
Labels: Bummed; It's Mid-year and things are just getting messier and I can't do it