Bloodthirsting Temptation, Hallucination of the Blind
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Y O U R S T R U L Y
sixteen cheers for me
Perfunction like me is perfect
Life's awesome
But Im getting bored of singlity
Im Superman
Superiority sucks, it ruins people
So yeah, I suck .
I'm the kind of girl who ALWAYS have a bad hair day .
I stammer alot . I'm super clumsy . I zoned out, alot .
I'm short, thin, small-eyed but I have a talking tummy .
I get rejected, and it'll rain on my wedding day .
Yup, I'm low esteem (:
F I F T E E N
RANDOM FACTS
well, i am STRANGE
ONE Yo Freaks, I make it simple for you.
TWO If you think you're too superior, leave .
THREE I'm haywired, difficult, weird in my own way .
FOUR I think the best of everyone and the worst of everything .
FIVE I'm weak in many ways .
SIX I'm no bitch but I can act as one .
SEVEN I'm no gangster but I can along with them .
EIGHT All I want to do now is partyy .
NINE All I want is to see a bit of light in the end of the day .
TEN I can't make it Farah, Ilah, Yati, Yuyul, Mom, Dad, Ari, AinaJ, Kyna .
ELEVEN &I love Afa, Ina, Epul, Rad, Anoi, Adah & alot more .
TWELVE And definitely, I'm thankful that I've found my bitch .
THIRTEEN No rules, just have courtesy alright (:
FOURTEEN Gossip, label all you want about me .
FIFTEEN But remember you're still on my blog page, bitch (:
T O D O L I S T
this should be useful
Work .
Enjoy .
Smoke .
Drink .
Fly .
Get a proper boyfriend .
B I T C H F I T S
yakkity yak yak
My babies
1:57 PM - Friday, March 13, 2009
Cute eh these kids ! First is Kyna my niece, followed by my nephew Nadil, followed by my cousin Awan, followed by my another niece Nadirah and lastly my another niece, Nadil's sister, Isya (:
So today went to cousin's house and then my kakak sedares seme with their children ader . Then our moms went to go to some place untuk do ape tah, then kite ape lagy control the house ah ! Karaoke, smoke2, shisha2, fuuuhh ! Dengar crite2 dorang, gerek dok gerek . Jage2 budak2 lime ekor nie . Sekali our moms called suroh jumpe pat Swensens, gerak ah kite nan 5 budak, 2 in prams, 3 running around like mad . And then kecoh I tell you ! Makan like what siak ! Then dah habes makan, standard anak dara seme hilang gy bakar nyamok :p
And then my kakak sedares all have to go off nak gy Bukit Panjang and I didn't tag along cause had to meet other people and my mom like kesian banyak barang had to bring home .And then nightmare came ! The makciks left me with the 5 kids while they went shopping for an hour . I tell you I was screaming my head off . Nadil and Awan were fighting over my attention . When Nadil sits on my lap, Awan pon nak, kaki macam nak patah oytt . Then kene pukol siket, due2 complain . And then, Isya in the pram was crying, nak kuar pram so angkat dier, and then Nadirah pulak nanges nak susu, so while carrying Isya, I fed Nadirah milk, in her pram . And then Awan and Nadil nak sit on my lap . I tell you mat and minah stared at me like what sia ! Niece gua jugak chill, takde kecoh2 dier tawu gua sayang dier gler rabak (: and then Awan ader blister pat kaki ! And then Nadil kene marah nan this shopowner for making noise . Then I had to run to chase Nadil, Kyna and Awan and left the pram . And then I heard Nadirah crying so ran back ! HAVOC HAVOC ! And then sekali, terserempak with my friend, buat maluuu ! Dier tanye, " Na, cepat kau . Majlis kahwin tak jempot, tetibe dah ader 5 anak." AIYOMAK ! ! ! !............................................................................................................................
After that went home around 5 ? Then Anoi's birthday, so I rush to Pasir Ris Park to meet they all, really2 rush sia ! And then spent time nan dorang . Hahaha, AlyaBaby was there, AdahBaby was there, Azim pon, layan kawan2 Anoi, Shrek Mio seme . Then kite masok swamp jap, Bdae girl nak masok sangat, skali the boys bukak ringtone yang menghilai tuh, Anoi almost cried, gua step strong ! Haha, standard ! Abeh Anoi dah scared, then I walked out with her nyanyi2 hum2, so dier tak takot . Teeeeeheeeees~ What more can I do ? I was scared myself, aksyen heroine jek ! And then Anoi seme balek, then tinggal me, Alya, Shrek, Mio and one more Anoi's friend Idk who . Then layan lah, dorang nye questions, teka-teki seme . Hahaha (:
Nie AdahBaby cutehead(: Nie AlyaBaby, mommy ! Nie, Aina muke busok !
Nie, photographer Alya suke amek gambar aku(: And the 2nd pic kene antar pat BGSS ! Student smoking ! Huahuahuahua !
NIE BIRTHDAY GIRL ! HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ANOIBABY (: MAY YOU BECOME FAZILAH CULLEN (:Labels: Bummed; YAY MY BABY TURNED 15 and I am never going to have 5 kids
Farah's 7eleven mouth (:
10:01 AM - Thursday, March 12, 2009
HERE ARE MASYEM'S AND SEPET'S CAMWHORING SESSION (:"True friends know how stupid you can be but still chose to be seen with you in public"(:
Ikotkan hati, aku mau gigit jek si Ikan Babi kat blakang tuh .
PICTURE OF THE DAY (: LOVEIT !
I know how stupid and ugly Farah can be but I still chose to be seen with her in public .
LIKE A BOY (:
I love this bitch of mine, my number one . Lagy2, ajal dier dah dekat (:
There's still two missing . Things can never be the same, they're ever-changing .
It was a nice day . Gua sampai 761 nye bustop jek, si Farah nye mulot start bukak . Takde tutop lu tawu ! Skali Ina minahrep, paitau kite siuls . Then kite proceed go 100 . Skali Rad call ajak jumpe, then kite jumpe Ilah Yati seme . Haiyoo, satu2 masalah sendiri . Utmostly, I love spending my time entertaining Farah's 7 eleven mouth (:Labels: abe asal ?, Gua sayang Farah
Gin and Tonic !
8:38 AM - Monday, March 2, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRA NURSYILAH BINTE ****** !Love you babe , today was awesome . Met YuyulBaby and IraBaby at 765, standard me and Yuyul lambat . Wahh, kite just met one minute, bobal2, like there's no tomorrow . Rindu la kan . Membebel nonesense . Then met Farah pat Bedok Interchange, bertambahlah babble2 . Then we go cam-whoring jap la kan . Girls mahh, then went sheesha at Amirah's Grill *aku dah cakap tempat dier gerek, degil.* Then, kite buat tuh tempat like our place siaaaak ! Baring mane2 kite nak, masok tempat VIPs , fuckkkk gerek gerek . I just love my girlfriends . Then makan makan, sheesha2 . Then Ira went EastPoint, Yuyul went home and me and Farah went to meet Afa at Bedok Interchange .Stumped, stricken . Terserempak with Nicole, and she went on and on about him . I tell you, I was crossing my arms, and I kept pinching myself and hoping and hoping she would stop . Every time I find the strength, something weakens me down . Like daymmm , and I just can't tell him I'm jealous cause it's inappropriate . I want to make things easier, not harder for him . I'm sooo not going to elaborate on this part . Then, me Afa and Farah slack at 420, Afa nak practise Taiti la kan, my 3rd student . Nyahaha, aku smack kepale kau Afa ! King is bigger than Five, mind you . And Nicole was messaging me, babbling2 . GRR !Now, I'm stuffing myself with food, and smoking and smoking cause I feel so agitated and unsatisfied with myself and I frigging don't know why, and my menses are errr, whoosyy doopsy luh . And I'm chatting with Afa and Farah about wellington boots and Ikan Babi and chatting with Raphie, well about Nicole =( Toodles . Sumpah aku sayang seme name orang yang aku mention pat siny, except Nicole (:Labels: Bummed; She tried to tell me, things she loves about the guy I love . Radical huh ?
Where trouble melts like lemondrops .
9:41 AM - Sunday, March 1, 2009
I dreamt of me telling you how much I love you .And I woke and the very end, when you finally opened your mouth saying,"But I don't love you." .To.Love.Doesnt.Mean.To.Own.You know what is stupid, you miss someone who doesn't even think about you for more than just, "eh mane aina, tak online," minute . To love someone who ridicule you for it . You know what is more stupid ? To be angry that you do . To cry when you miss him . To blame yourself for blaming him . And the stupidest thing is to, want to show him what he means when you know he doesn't bother and to take every mistake as your unworthy-ness and to do everything for his sake but still thinking you're selfish for loving him .I can't look away, yet I can't look your way . Everything I do for you, isn't sacrifices, it's my favourite things . Like talking to you till you sleep, to keep hoping, to just keep waiting in the line, to wish you the best, better than me . I'll be here, until you're mine or someone's . And then I'll leave, and not regret for waiting for you, cause it's been a pleasure and I don't expect a return from you . Loving someone should be a pleasure, not a debt . Love should be about giving, not owing . Love is a strange game, and sometimes you lose, what matters is the fun and the experience .I don't tell you everything that I've felt cause I swear I don't it to be a burden to you . I would be anything, except a liability to you, like you owe me . And I struggled and struggled to reassure myself what I'm doing is right . I thank god for everything he gave me cause then I wouldn't be here to recognise this feeling . Everyday I reassure him, how wonderful he is , and how lucky I am and how I don't want to be a burden . Sometimes I want to tell him that I would be there if he ever falls again, that I would give him courage to find strength by himself instead of just giving it to him, when he loses strength and how I'll always help him get through his days . But that would be a burden to him cause I'm letting him know how much he means to me and that he might be feeling guilty cause he don't see me the same way .I love you and but, never comes together in a sentence, mind you . I just want to be reassure that he does have a thing for me, that's all and I'm willing to wait for that, even if no relationship is involved . Everyday, I make sure he's safe and sound asleep before I end my day, even if I'm super sleepy, to make sure I end my day with hearing his voice cause if I don't wake up the next day, I've at least heard his voice the very last day . And I'll never say goodnight first cause i treasure every minute I hav with him . A hug from him would mean alot more than dining in the most expensive candlelight dinner with the scenery of Las Vegas . I just hope that he'll think of me, not every minute, but at least when he needs someone to cheer him up, even if I'm the last resort . That's how little I expect from him, yet how much I expect from myself . God, if only I can pour out all my heart content, but I'm not really one who's good at expressing my feelings like Afa,*jealousy* and even if I can, it would take a hundred posts to talk about him . Besides, it's complicated, these feelings . Too blinded by the one you desire , that you didn't look at the one you deserve . But, the one I desire and the one I deserve is interwined, dammit it's the same person (: Take a gazillion chances and courage, I'll wait for him as long as he needs me as company (:
BABY, FOR YOU A THOUSAND TIMES OVER, I SWEAR (:
Labels: Bummed; Accidentally in love .
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NIE BIRTHDAY GIRL ! HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ANOIBABY (: MAY YOU BECOME FAZILAH CULLEN (:
