We've met before 2 years ago, but I've never paid any attention to him . He was just a typical matrep . And I saw nothing in him . And then a year went by, and by fate, We met again at my LepakCrew's pit . He was cute and look so timid beside his friend . He wouldn't look me in my face while talking to him . When I introduced them to my friends, my friends were attracted to his handsome friends, and I wasn't attracted to neither , at that point of time . But he was attracted to my friend . So suddenly I heard from my friend who's contacting his friend that he asked for my number to catch up with each other, I guess . And one day, we were in a online conversation with his friend, I called him an asshole and he called me awesome . Yes, I know he's silly . And then, we chatted every night online and on the phone . And we meet often . I ended my days with hearing his voice . I didn't know until one day, I didn't went online or called him, and then I knew he meant something .
The first time we met, it was 6.30 in the morning . He was supposed to send me to work . I was 15 mins late and I was super worried he left, but he was there sitting at the bustop, with his laptop and blue shirt and jeans , smiling . We then went to Bedok Interchange and sat at Skatepark as I didn't want to have breakfast, we watched old people doing Taichi and mimicked them . His laughter made me laugh, it's stupid . We got along really well, and it's a wonder why I didn't talk to him a year back, ohh ya, he was someone's boyfriend . And he sent me off to work . I walked to my workplace, thinking about him . At that point, I thought he was just a friend . But looking back, I smiled all the way and now I know the more I knew about him, the more I fall for him .
I brought him to meet my friends, and my friends like him and that don't normally happen . Soon, I always bring him along to my friend's crib for movie marathon and he was my pillow for horror movies . And I felt so comfortable with him and I don't know why . I wasn't normally like that with guys . And then I realise he wasn't like those other guys . We drank together and I got drunk . He took care of me and I sent him to the bustop . He hugged me and I walked back , and finally realised he did hug me, and I smile all the way back . Now I know, without him, I would have never felt this way .
We talked on the phone almost every night, and usually I have to wait for him to sleep . He would ask me to sing, to make stupid cartoon voices or whatever . He so ubberly cute when he's sleepy . I could have mouth cramps, cause of too much smiling and he would have to be blamed . Once, he asked me to express my feelings and say sweet things about him until he falls asleep . And normally in his sleepy mood, he would forget what I say the very next day . So I did, and one point of time he said, "Damn aina, you're making me smile." If only he knew how embarrassed I was telling him about my heart, and if only he knew how I smiled knowing I'm the reason he's smiling . And when he fell sleep on the phone each night, I would whisper that I love him . And then I knew, I'll never get bored of him no matter how many decades I have to entertain him .
Once he said to me, he isn't boyfriend material type . I just disagree, I wish I could have shown or told him how much he fits as a boyfriend . I wish he could see himself through my SEPET eyes . He thinks he knows how I feel about him, but he knows only 1/4 of it . And please stay that way . When a girl likes a guy, she's bound to hate certain things about him . But I love everything about him . When I start off with a guy as friends, I would never fall for him, but I'm head over heels for him . I've never wait for a guy who doesn't like me, but I can't help it . I'm normally rude to guys, but not with him . He's changing the nature of things in my life, but I like it .
His laughter is errrr indescribable . His way of talking is more like draggy2, mat ganja and my friends complained about not understanding what the fuck he's saying, but I understand somehow . His way of explaining is not very useful . He admits that he's ego . He's smart . He's a nice and friendly guy . He's weird in very way . He's not ready for a relationship . He's turning gay cause he lost interest in girls .
He's a heavy sleeper and he's busy and we're not meeting that often . He mumbles in his sleeps . But no matter what, I know he's worth the wait . I know girls aren't suppose to wait for a guy, but I'll wait while trying to get rid of this feelings cause I don't want it to be a burden for him . Neither, I want it to be one sided love . So I shall be there for him as long as he still needs it . So let time decide shall we while I wait . We don;t know anything for sure, but two facts, we've already know I love him and he deserve better .
Labels: Bummed; with you, my love, my strength .