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1:07 AM - Monday, December 8, 2008

Ahahaha . Some friends just can't be trusted eyhh ? It's my deep secret and I definitely do not want others to know . Eyhh fuckkk .

Anyway , that's not a big deal . This is the big deal . Imagine this, I went home from work . Met myy friends and came AffikBabyy or should I say AffikAhole . He was with this girl . And he didn't sit with me and my friends, he sat with that girl . And he slept on the girl's lap . Ohh, he was truly enjoying himself . Keep this in mind, he calls me his babyyy .

And then in the night we talked . And he asked me if I saw the girl he brought just now . I said yes , with a big DUH there . And he asked if I knew who that was . So I say the girl he's dating . And he said, he using that girl for moneyy . And that he making that girl his girlfriend . And that my attitude suckss . And the phone went dead .

So my pride was hurt, ALOT . And yeah, I shattered . But I left him a message wishing him all the best with the girl . And he called me again, I hung up . And her called again, so I picked up cause I've got the idea he's never gonna give up till he breaks me completely into amino acids . And guess what, he said it was all an act to hurt me ! And that his heart is always with me . Heyho, he's one damn good actor . Cause my friend saw that girl's picture as his screensaver 3 days ago .

The thing I don't get is, he said he needed space as his exams were coming so I laid back . And he brought that girl down and told me he was studying with her . And I trusted him . And myy attitude sucks ? Everything I do to him isn't right . Sucks doesn't it ? Yes, he does .

And guess what, he told me, that he's just playing around with girls, alot of girls . Keep this is mind, he calls me baby stiel (:

And now, he's at that girl's grandmother's house to meet the girl's family . Awesome ! I've made a conclusion that if I ever get mad at him, he would say this, "I've told you already what about all the girls . Why should you get mad ?" Which means I have no right to be mad cause he gave me a warning . Daym, I'm super dumbb .

Alright eventhough I'm writing like it's not hurting, it hurts so bad that it's so numb .
"No matter how much you disgusts others, I've never asked you to change your anything . But you asked me to change myy everything . "

Labels: Bummed; I love him . He used me . I feel used .