Cause I've taken everything else .
Babe, thats where you're so wrong .
You said you won't judge, think back aren't you judging .
Please don't act like you know her better cause I know she understand myy situation .
I just wish you would too .
I know how you are, you're caring but you want the truth to be splat to your face and I would do that but I just need time to adjust to all this shits .
She knows I'll tell but I just need TIME .
Babe, time is mine .
I know what to do when it comes to me eventhough how stupid I may have been .
This is how best friend's friendship works .
They don't pressurized you, instead these friendships makes you confident that you'll survive .
Look dearest, I didn't chose to open up to them .
I didn't even know that they knew .
You know I don't choose friends
I was acting like nothing happened when suddenly she asked me when Imma tell her .
Cause she knows .
She had initiative .
Cause she called myy house when I was away in the police station .
Myy mom told her .
Tell me, how can I stop that ?
You think I want her to know ?
I just want to live on w/o letting anyone knows .
But not that Im not facing it, I am but just I made a change .
Im doing it alone .
I realised that it's not her fault .
It's mine .
But babe, Im pleading you to give me time .
Cause Im just like you a 16-year-old .
I know dearests, both of you care so much .
Sometimes, I know I don't deserve it .
But Im tired of being weak .
I just thought if my family is ashamed of me, you would be too .
You just see part of it, you don't see the whole junk .
Why ? Cause it's me experiencing it .
Babe, it's more to me than just confiding in you guys .
Cause there's more that meets the eye .
There's more than just what you know .
Thats what Ive been trying to tell .
But you guys means alot more than all those, you should know .
Babes, I plead for your forgiveness .
Ive turned shallow .
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