I hate school .
I love friends .
I need to smoke right now .
I can't wait for Thursday, school ends early .
I agree w FarahDearest, we need a break . A CHALET during June Holiday .
I dread Friday, how bad its gonna turn out .
But oh well, I got a maniac as a 'date' (;
Ilah should stop losing her things, I don't understand she is so alert but still her things get missing .
And I didn't mean to force you or anything to go .
Okay, there goes .
Stop treating myy friends like they are yours . Not that I hate it, but SOMETIMES, once in a while, it gets on myy nerve . Thinking how you despise it when people treat your friends like their . If you can accept people doing that, only then I can accept you doing it . Cause I find it unfair, that you do things you don't like . And plus, you only treat them like yours when everyone likes dem . What happened when everyone was hating dem last year or so ? You called dem MYY FRIENDS . Friends accept you as who you are .
Stop using me like your backup .
Stop trying to act like the hero in myy life and making decisions for me .
You may say, you're not but hello, you're pressuring me .
Start understanding me .
The thing is you always think you're right, like you'll find some other reasons to cover up your mistakes but dude you are myy friend and we both make alot of mistakes .
If I can accept mine w/o changing what you mean to me, why can't you ?
The thing is, I want to let you all understand but Im afraid things would change .
But again, maybe Im just overrreacting and stuffs . Im fucked up right now so Im sorry if what I said is untrue . I take back what I said . I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING THAT I SAID . I WAS FUCKING OVERREACTING, BEING MAD DOESN'T MEAN I CAN WEIGH IT ON YOU GUYS
" Babe 1(Farah), I miss those times when eventhough there was only the 2 of us, everything felt secure and ever-lasting . I miss it when you were always there throughout myy whole secondary and important part of life . I miss it when we face problems together . No secrets . I miss you ."
" Babe 2(Ilah), I miss those times when we drink, live, laugh . I miss when you still comprehen me . I miss it when you still confide in me . I miss it when whenever you are there, I would never feel lonely . I didn't say a word cause I felt like I owe you alot of things . I miss THE FACT when there were you ."
"I can't trust . I can't confide . I don't understand ."
Labels: Bummed; Just 6 months and I'll get away from EVERYTHING cause I can feel all this is temporary