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If I told you the whole truth, you would still question the million lies

7:23 AM - Monday, April 14, 2008

Monday was okay .
I was kinda happier than the past days .
Maybe cause Im busy listening to sorrows .
It helped me, you know .
Biology, Afa poured her heart out .
Thanks babe, for trusting me .
Listen, concentrate on Os if you're too pressured .
At least, you're pressured for a good reason .
Farah didn't came, bummer .
Im praying she's feeling fine .

Then after school, i went studying w Fret at Bedok Interchange Macdonalds.
Afa tagged along, some hallucinated people were supposed to .
Then Fret blanje me and AFA who threatened to cabot his bulu kaki if he refused .
Then AfaDearest came along, then there was an awkward silence .
I tried to help but clearly Irfaan was fucked up and couldn't understand Afa, although we tried to help .
Irfaan, cheer up DUDE !
Then, Epul came all hallucinated .
Then he told me Yus wanted to meet me .
So I say NO !
Then bad luck came, YUSRI and GANG walked into Mac so I ran out w Epul .
Then I asked Fret to go first and Yus talked to me .

So he asked about everything myy whole life .
So I told him, don't expect me to love someone in a week or two cause I can't and won't .
And Im not like him who just go around loving any girl who you think will work out .
And he said he was sorry for everything and he looked like he wanted to cryy cause I talked and stood like I didn't care .
I do care but not like he thinks .
I care enough to just hug him if he cries but I don't care enough to just accept him cause I pity him .
I said, 'Takpe ! Dah biase kene marah2, kene tengking2, kene treat cam budak2 pasal myy past . Dah biase dah takk ble explain seme . At least, let me explain . Ive never said that I loved you, I avoided you . Think back ."
Then he apologised again and again .
Then myy superb boify came to myy rescue before I cried, "Dah Aina lambat(dier tipu anyways.) Kay dah Yus, anything else ?"
So Yus geleng, and when he salam-ed me, he looked at me in disappointment, I guess I wasn't Aina that he expected me to be .
Then when I walked out, he shouted LOVE YOU and gave me a flying kiss .
And it struck me, we'll never be .

Then, met Fret .
He looked unhappy .
Then we went home .
THE END of MONDAY !
I DON'T FEEL LIKE COMING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW !
But I am so going night study .
Why do I have to keep doing things I can't bear ?

"You're nice, but you possessive and stubborn and not understanding . And you isn't just the reason Ive never opened myy heart . Its cause he came and knocked on myy heart, and I can't erase him yet "

" Closed myyself from love, didn't need the pain . Once or twice was enough ."

If I told you the whole truth, you would still question the million lies

Labels: Bummed; Called me stupid, but Ive made myy decision